battling the demons within
struggling to keep my soul without sin
hardships destroy my will to win
release my pain and move ahead
today, i hate all you said
how to move an inch and get out of bed
darkness, destruction, torture, pain
difficult to keep my thoughts sane
effort and hope are all in vain
the night will end – the sun will rise
but i will still be the thing i despise
years ago, i tossed my happy disguise
judge me all you want and cast your stones
roll your eyes at my rotten bones
i was once entrenched upon that throne
such sage advice…you have no clue
don’t worry i hate me more than you
i will be the one to pay debts past due
foul choices decided all those years
you laugh and scoff at my tears
get your fucking ass out of here
disintegration, laziness, worthlessness, death
addicted to the doctor’s caffeinated meth
I weep and choke on my last breath
god decided years ago on his own
when he cursed me with rotten bones
i would die alone
Posts Tagged ‘death’
rotten bones
Posted in arthritis, depressed, failure, medications, pain, panic attacks, poem, tagged arthritis, brokenhearted, death, depressed, depression, failure, feeling lonely, poem, psoriatic arthritis, sad on October 12, 2019| Leave a Comment »
wish
Posted in arthritis, depressed, pain, poem, tagged arthritis, death, depressed, depression, failure, feeling lonely, pain, poem, psoriatic arthritis, sad, wish, worthless on June 18, 2019| Leave a Comment »
I wish every time I
hurt
A piece of me fell off
Then you would see
How little I’ve
become
If I had that one wish
I wouldn’t wish to be
okay
Because that will never
be
okay?
I hope you understand
How much I wish I was
dead
Then I would be free
Of all the shit that is
me
Blanketed by a shroud
Posted in poem, tagged brokenhearted, cold, death, depressed, depression, failure, feeling lonely, letting go, lonely, poem, sad, winter, worthless on November 18, 2015| Leave a Comment »
Death holds the day when all the colors fade to gray
Blanketed by a shroud fading life covered by a weeping cloud
Visions swirl in my head a world full of mostly dead
Death feeds the day when all the colors become gray
World trapped by ice for the homeless life’s a sacrifice
Sleeping trees vomit decayed leaves
Death controls the day when all the colors remember gray
Morbid chill from the North makes creatures ill
Grace eludes me a captured soul never free
Oh yes, Death loves the day when all the colors seem only gray.
peaceful into the night
Posted in broken-hearted, failure, god, poem, tagged death, depression, God, letting go, lonely, love, night, poem, sad, worthless on August 19, 2014| Leave a Comment »
peaceful into the night
peaceful into the night
my star never did burn bright
peaceful into the night
not a fucking thing done right
peaceful into the night
my soul yearns for god’s light
as I pass
as I pass…
peaceful into the night
muddy dreams slip from my sight
gripping my breathe tight
I – of forgotten me – refuse to fight
as I sink
as I float
peaceful into the night
love’s pitiful plight
shattered outright
as I… go…
to empathy’s delight
peaceful into the night
peaceful into the night
peaceful
into
the
night
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