Compiling God's Code

there’s my mom, sittin’ up front, cryin’, carryin’ on

in er blue dress, the one she got for my gradeation

the lace ’round the collar is tore, but that’s my fault

seein’ how she cried, when i fell, cause i was plastered

didn’t even have it in my hand yet, the deploma that is

everyone laughed…but not my mom, she gets angry

yellin’, sayin’ i ain’t got no respect for people

sreamin’ she wanted one time to be proud of me

how everyone stared, when i ripped er dress

that lace that is, when you get yelled to, i jutsa lot my min’

she got it sewed up now, er face buried in er hands

i bet er eyes are red, cause that’s what happens

when she cries that is, er hands seem old, like my na-naw’s

but she dead, died going on three, no maybe five years

anyhow i got er eyes my mom said, dark blue, and

lookin’ like i’m serious and smart ‘cept i don’t feel smart

boy i bet she the one who got those red flowers

cause she likes red flowers, car..ne…tions, i think

she loved to look at flowers, walkin’ through folks yards

smellin’ the flowers, she really took to the red ones

an’ that’s all i see up there, justa those car…netions

mom sittin’ alone cause we ain’t got no family, besides me

seein how we don’t no where dad went, bein’ after they fought

he leavin’ when i was ten, the only memory i have is ‘im

helpin’ ole man johnson cut rice durin’ the hot summer

we took ‘im sum food, could’ve been a burger

he driven’ that combine, with his shirt off, sweatin’

cause there weren’t no ac in it, all he had had been beer

that cooler sat beside ‘im at his feet, his boots were off

there were snakes in those fields, swimin’ in the water

but he weren’t afraid, he didn’t come and get the burger

we justa left it with ole man johnson

there ain’t much folks here, besides my mom sittin up front

i still wish i could see er face, i wanted to see er smilin’

i don’t think she a goin’ do that here, i sure would feel better

seein’ er small smile, the way er eyes kinda close up

she had nice white teeth too, i sure could remember cryin’

and seein’ that smile made me feel much better, sure ‘nough

back there in the back sits ole mr. williams a teacher

he was alway tellin’ me to stay in school, but me, i wanted

i wanted to fix cars cause i loved racin’ fast cars

they said i was the best at makin’ cars run

whys all the neighbors would bring me their cars, cause i’s the best

an’ cause they ain’t got no money, an’ i’d do it for free

but ole mr. williams he’d tell me to study cause

he said i needed a edecation, he was nice, treatin’ me good

even when i was bad, talkin’ and cussin’ in class, ignorin’

his talkin’, i never write notes, but he kept sayin’

“boy i see sumpin’ in your eyes, you got smarts back there

you justs got to learn how to use it, you need to try

god gave you a brain and you need to use it”

or sumpin’ like that, just like my mom said

but i wasn’t no good at school, my dad and mom

didn’t even get through high school, and my friends

where is they, i can’t see em, well, they didn’t like school

there’s ole ms. barker, she a friend of my mom, a neighbor

she sittin’ two rows behind my mom, er dress ain’t as pretty

it’s kinda faded, i can’t tell if that’s  yellow or green

it musta be the only one she got, cause it really ain’t proper

there a couple more friends of my mom, i’m glad they came

i can count the number of people on my hands

but where are bobby and ronny, we did everything together

raced cars, they the ones that talked me into doin’ that

an they ain’t even here, man, i’d be there if it was ’em

we get drunk together, maybe give a few girls sum’ hell

shit we’d have fun, mom said they were a bad influenz

but i liked havin’ fun with ’em, an they didn’t need school

hell, it’s only two months since i gradeated, i justa needed

sum money for my car, we was fixin’ it up good,

ain’t no body around would’ve been able to beat it

what the hell is he doin’ here, sittin’ in the back

he ain’t got no right here, i don’t know his name

but he ain’t supposed to be here, what’s he a cryin’ for

my mom should be cryin’, he ain’t got no reason to cry

he got so much money while i got none, i was justa borrowin’

it was his store, but i didn’t get nothin’, damn if he’d only left

like he was a supposed to, i would’ve missed him,

whys he cryin’, he shakin’ in his sunday suit, he’s dressed the best

with the pin-stripes, at least he wearin’ dark, why he here

could he feel sorry for what he did, cause i guess

it won’t his fault, i was a packin’, i would’ve kilt’ him

there go my mom a cryin’ out loud, i’m a goin’ miss er

if only i could hug er one more time, but i gots to go

i ain’t a sayin’ i gots what i deserves, but i love my mom

i didn’t mean for it to go like this, maybe i could’ve been–

i could’ve listened to ole mr. williams, learned sumpin’

well, i don’t know if god forgive me, but i forgive that man

cause i would’ve shot ‘im, and bys the looks of those two girls

the ones with blonde curly hair, like angels, only sumpin’

i can see here, i glad he got me first, but i hate to go

leavin’ like this, leavin’ her alone, and me a scared

cause what’s i’m a goin’ to do– well, there’s na-naw

she’s a wavin’ me to come on, bye world

i’m glad sum’ of you remember me