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i just want you to know who i am

July 19, 2012 by Wade

alone in the car
alone in a cubical
alone under the highway underpass
kids screaming
can’t sleep
keep my head down
i wonder how mom is doing
pants are too tight
hair too short
i can’t believe i’m pregnant
i can’t believe i lost it
i can’t believe she’s finally here
missing the one i gave up
the days creep along
day’s almost over
shall i end it all
would anyone even care
i’m getting married
i want a divorce
i just wish someone was around
worthless
broken
homeless
depressed
what’s her name
should i take a chance
should i get high
should i take a nap
i’m here all around you
every second of every day
just acknowledge me
just accept my faults
just love me
because
i want you to know who i am
i need you to know who i am
i just want you…
i just want you…
to know who i am

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Is there a God?

July 12, 2012 by Wade

Are you looking to find God?

I regard the brain as a computer which will stop working when its components fail. There is no heaven or afterlife for broken down computers; that is a fairy story for people afraid of the dark. Stephen Hawking 1

A man can no more diminish God’s glory by refusing to worship Him than a lunatic can put out the sun by scribbling the word, ‘darkness’ on the walls of his cell.
C.S. Lewis 2

Is there a God?

Most people will give you a quick answer, either yes or no, and move on to something else. That question is pretty straight forward, but, and this is a big but, you ask someone why he or she believes there is a God, and you will quickly find that most people don’t know how to handle that question. I would venture to say that most people don’t even want that question tossed out there. I mean, what kind of question is that? Where do I, or anyone for that matter, even start with “why do you believe there is a God?” Continue Reading »

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the christian clique

July 6, 2012 by Wade

Can you remember a time when you’ve been on the outside looking in, where everyone else knew the lingo, knew what to do, knew the inside jokes and seemed to fit right in? As someone who has been a loner a lot of my life and refused to put myself out there, I’ve been there, and it hurts. Usually, most people walk away from that situation because it’s so difficult to break into that intimate group. I have. It’s just easier that way.

A lot of the time, the group doesn’t even know they’re being exclusive. I mean, they’ve been together for years; they’ve raised their kids together; they’ve gone to the movies together; they’ve gathered together once a week for as long as they can remember, so naturally, bonds have been formed and invisible walls have been built. Continue Reading »

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negative energy

July 1, 2012 by Wade

No matter the origin, negative energy has only one destination, and that place is your soul. And as you fight it and struggle to push it away, you dwell longer and longer on it, feeding it, until the negativity distracts you and overwhelms you. Its simplicity is why it thrives, and the origin has long moved on, but that whisper, as you sit alone with your thoughts, gnaws and gnaws at your confidence, your heart, your logic, and your connection with God.

Forgiveness.

Jesus teaches of forgiveness because, while it won’t unring the bell, it transfers power from an external force to you and your relationship with God. It heals the soul. Instead of struggling, you let go. Now the whisper in your ear speaks of love and freedom. Forgiveness brings peace and a realization that life moves on, even after a bout with negative energy.

Seek and you shall find. Ask and it will be given. Forgive and you will know love.

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Why do my feet rest here?

June 30, 2012 by Wade

Is life so random that, as I sit at this desk, typing on this computer, living in this particular apartment in Houston, I’m supposed to believe my life to this exact point in my timeline, that, that it could have been an infinite number of different possibilities? This planet, this sun, this solar system, this galaxy, and this entire cosmos randomly burst into existence without rhythm or reason and through natural selection, that life grew from nothing to this — without some sort of purpose to all of our lives and endless other lives that could exist in this universe? Continue Reading »

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