Compiling God's Code

alone in the car
alone in a cubical
alone under the highway underpass
kids screaming
can’t sleep
keep my head down
i wonder how mom is doing
pants are too tight
hair too short
i can’t believe i’m pregnant
i can’t believe i lost it
i can’t believe she’s finally here
missing the one i gave up
the days creep along
day’s almost over
shall i end it all
would anyone even care
i’m getting married
i want a divorce
i just wish someone was around
worthless
broken
homeless
depressed
what’s her name
should i take a chance
should i get high
should i take a nap
i’m here all around you
every second of every day
just acknowledge me
just accept my faults
just love me
because
i want you to know who i am
i need you to know who i am
i just want you…
i just want you…
to know who i am