Compiling God's Code

fresh blue eyes
shimmer…
like wet marbles
(streaked with gold)
in the early morning light.

full pink lips
explore…
soft like rose petals
(brought gently to the nose)
at her mother’s breast.

short purple fingers
hold…
like God’s embrace
(stretched from Heaven’s throne)
onto my quivering finger.

Only hours old…
she…
satisfies my life
she…
captures my soul.

Romans did not crucify the Lord of my life.
He did not perish on top of some hill.
He was not sacrificed by agnostics;
He was not flogged by atheists.
Christ didn’t bear the burden… of men long forgotten.
Ignorance didn’t dictate His fate.
Intelligence didn’t ensure His capture.
No! Romans did not crucify the Lord of my life.
I do…
I crucify my Lord,
but He never perishes.
He sacrifices
so sins no longer destroy my flesh.
Christ bears my burdens… of sins forgiven.
When hate enslaves my heart,
His love ensures my release.
NO! Romans did not crucify the Lord of my life.
I do… but my Lord loves me still.

The Lord gives.
The Lord takes.
He fills my soul
that
which I don’t deserve.
I chase… and fall.
Like the shadows of a setting sun,
it stretches outward away from me.
I pray for
that
which I don’t deserve.
God! You torture me!
You keep me wanting more.
I am just a stupid man.
Please, give me
that
which I don’t deserve.
Keep me lonely.
Keep me depraved.
Keep me a beaten man.
Just get it away
that
which I don’t deserve.
Glory comes
to those that follow You.
To me… sacrificed it all.
No no no, I still want
that
which I don’t deserve.

God…

leaves shiver
fresh chill on my skin
raining from the sky
my children asleep

clouds drift
city glow on horizon
a barking in forgotton yard
prayer soothes my soul

life changes
fear overwhelms
meditating on a path
forgiveness saves

Computers give no love.
They expect none in return.
They just function, but
what about us geeks?

Is God just love?
His universe exists on math and science.
The code is unyielding
for without it there is no here.

Yet, something thrives that can’t be measured,
that can’t be touched,
that can’t be bound…
Does God exist in the loveless laws
if love knows no logic,
if love has no reason,
if love has no rules…

Are we the part of God that gets forgotten?
The heart that knows God
must be of love
that’s what we’re taught,
but maybe, we know His other side.

His lonely side
that was before the now
that developed all there is
that craved to create
that had Him write the code.