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You are Loved

Posted in christian, god, love on February 26, 2012| Leave a Comment »

Basically, I can write whatever I want to on this blog because no one really reads this stuff. I only write because I don’t know how else to release the thoughts swirling around in my head. This weekend sucked for me even though I got to see all my kids (minus the older ones) which is always a blessing, and I’m thankful for the time, but with the blessing comes a curse — I have to see my kids suffer when the visit is over. That is definitely the hardest course of action that I have ever undertaken — that is telling my kids goodbye for another time.

While that sucks, trust me, it’s not what weighs heaviest on my heart. On Friday, I listened to a 911 call by the actor that played Mr. Kruger on Seinfeld. He attempted suicide by shooting himself in the head; it failed, and he called 911 for help. The call is very straight forward, and he seems very calm for someone who just shot himself in the head.

I’m having a hard time with the sadness, the desperation, and loneliness that he must have been enduring in his life for him to attempt suicide. I guess I can’t deal with the fact that people feel so horrible about themselves. I’ve been there so I know what it feels like to be so alone and wonder what not just the next day will bring but what the next hour or even minute holds.

I wish that I could tell everyone who is feeling sad, alone, unloved, afraid, broken, and on the brink of considering that his or her life is unworthy of this world that they are loved. I love you. You don’t have to be alone. I feel helpless because I am useless when it comes to solving their problems. I am no superhero. Hell, I’m not even a person who talks to people. I keep to myself, forever the introvert. I pray that I have the power to overcome my inadequacies so that I can seek those who need to know that they have value to someone — to me and to God.

I would invite you to dinner. I would listen to your problems. I would be the friend you need, but I don’t know how to even start that conversation. I wish that God had given me the ability to communicate. I wouldn’t waste it on meaningless political topics, sales pitches, or hooking up for one night stands. No. I would get on a tall pedestal and yell to the world and tell my fellow brothers and sisters that life does suck and that you can feel alone, very alone, sometimes, but you’re not. God loves you. I love you. You don’t have to face your difficulties alone. God bears all burdens. He conquers all fears. He forgives all sins, and he loves unconditionally.

My heart aches for the broken souls. I can’t even imagine how God must feel. To be right there with them, waiting for them to just call his name and ask for his help, trying desperately to reveal his love, watching as they suffer, holding them as their sorrow blinds them and closes off their hearts to his love.

I curse myself for not having the courage to help those that need it most. May God hear my pleas and take all that I have and bestow it on those that have nothing. And if by some act of God, you stumble upon this blog, I pray that you realize that you are loved. Call me. Email me. Pray. Ask God to comfort you. He loves you. He will shoulder your burdens. He will ease your pain. I know. I’ve been there. He did it for me, and I am only just a someone just like you.

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A Christian…

Posted in christian, church, god, love on October 20, 2011| Leave a Comment »

How does a “Christian” say that another person is “not a Christian?” Have lessons of our Lord been lost and forgotten? I am saddened, and I cannot sleep as I know that Jesus did not teach judgment; he did not reveal labeling; he did not die so that others may be castaways. It just doesn’t happen on the news; I know actions similar to this occur way more than they should.

I am awake late at night writing my thoughts. I see that over two weeks ago I had started writing about what it meant to be a Christian. The page had been left blank because, even though I felt in my heart what it meant, the words just would not come forth, and now, as I try to sleep, the words will not go away, so I type them, and I let them fall as they may because that is how the sprit moves – on God’s time. I’m not saying that God is giving me the words, but I believe that I had to see the man claiming to be a Christian, judging, labeling, and breaking my heart for the moment to take shape and the words to find their way to this paper. Tonight.

I’m not here to judge another’s action; I am simply stating the spark to my discussion as it may be called or my ramblings as most would label it. I am here so others may know the truth, so that others may know my God and His love for all of us. A “Christian” is not one who follows Christ, but a Christian is one who lives in Christ, so as one who lives with God, you must live His truths.

You forgive.
You embrace.
You receive.
You build up.
You nurture.
You believe.
You love.

Simple words. They are not complicated and neither are the actions.

Is it any wonder why so many people are turned away from God, when so many examples they encounter are judgment and exclusion. God is love. He sent his only son not for the pastors, the deacons, the priests, the elders or the people sitting in pews, BUT for the forgotten, the lost, the misunderstood, the broken, the hurt, the sinners… If we lived his truths, his word would spread not because we say so but because we do so.

Remember what Jesus said in Luke 18:9-14 (NIV).

9To some who were confident of their own righteousness and looked down on everyone else, Jesus told this parable: 10 “Two men went up to the temple to pray, one a Pharisee and the other a tax collector. 11 The Pharisee stood by himself and prayed: ‘God, I thank you that I am not like other people—robbers, evildoers, adulterers—or even like this tax collector. 12 I fast twice a week and give a tenth of all I get.’
13 “But the tax collector stood at a distance. He would not even look up to heaven, but beat his breast and said, ‘God, have mercy on me, a sinner.’
14 “I tell you that this man, rather than the other, went home justified before God. For all those who exalt themselves will be humbled, and those who humble themselves will be exalted.”

How will you live your life?

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