Compiling God's Code

a day, like the day before
but not the day after,
changed my world as i knew it;
a day, bearing gifts from god
transported by a stranger
fragile were they,
scared was i…
a day, simple yet complicated,
dropped a love that appeared
and grows to this day;
a day, promising my lord,
as i peeked through curtains
at what he delivered,
(not of me but more than i am)
i swore to protect
the boys of a cruel world.
just a day,
you probably don’t remember
the breaths you took,
opportunities overlooked,
or the warmth of a february sun;
a day, etched in my memory,
by simply closing my eyes,
i hear the squeak of the door,
smell of your breath,
and your weight in my arms.
a day, that passed as all others,
but remains…thank you

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a pale light, shimmering,
through black swirling clouds
soothes my pity.

someone still believes in me.

yet…                    i wonder…
if i hurt God one more time
will He revoke my angel,
that often shivers with sadness
at my bitter evil.

my angel rests,
as love scatters from my soul.
but God will not release me.
as i lose him,
He remains patient.

though i struggle to bind
Him into my world,
i remain in His eyes.
God is love,
and for some reason…
He loves me.

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barren field-
not worth planting
empty shell-
not worth filling
i am just a peasant;
i cannot change.

my Lord asks
i give all of little.
my Lord asks
my life i sacrifice.

His grace
i don’t deserve.
down on my knees i beg
for just a speck of the dust
on my Lord’s sandals.
i am but a peasant;
i don’t want to change.

my Lord asks
i give all of little.
my Lord asks
my life i sacrifice.

show me your favor;
send an angel
to quench the thirst
of my starving soul
not worth saving.
accepting my lot,
i serve my Lord.
i am the sinner;
He is my King

my Lord asks
i give
all of
little…
my Lord asks
my life
i
sacrifice…

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